This may be the first day, in what seems like forever (time is uneding in the dark and reality skewed), that I have actually smiled and meant it. Today, December 22, 2016, I smiled!
Depression hits me out of nowhere sometimes and it seems that no matter what I do, I can't shake it, so through the motions, I go. Today, those motions felt more powerful, today those motions weren't so difficult...today, I smiled and I meant it. Yesterday, while out on a lunch date with my sweetheart, I received a phone call from a friend who does not often call on the phone. I felt I needed to take it even though I was enjoying some rare time with my busy husband. I answered the call to hear her say that she was just thinking about me and wanted to call. I took the opportunity to share a prayer request, later followed by a text message telling her I had been struggling and her phone call came at the perfect time. As is the case, most times, I find that once I speak the darkness into the light and share with others who will lift me up in prayer, the power it has over me is broken. As I shared, I could already feel the weight lifting. Depression wants to isolate me and too often, I let it. Yes, going through the motions helped, but ultimately, for me, speaking it out loud to others who come in agreement before for the Lord in the name of Jesus breaks every chain that is bound in me. Thank you Lord. Can I encourage you, during this season of Joy, that often times feels anything but, do not be tempted to isolate yourself, but allow others to stand alongside you in prayer. You may find that it eases the load and may allow you to see the light and promise to come. Joyful Christmas and I love you in the Lord, Mia
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Heidi
12/22/2016 04:15:38 pm
Love you Mia❤️
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Mia Koehne
12/22/2016 10:09:47 pm
You too!💕
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Donna Tunno
12/22/2016 04:57:14 pm
I go thru those bouts too. It's been a transition year for me. I retired a year ago and just moved Phoenix shortly afterwards. I miss my church family so much. It's hard to start over, but I am convinced that we are where God wants us! Thanks for sharing Mia, Merry Christmas!
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Mia Koehne
12/22/2016 10:11:11 pm
Yes, moves are difficult but always worth it when we are where God plants us.
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Lori Millhouse
12/22/2016 05:52:10 pm
Oh,I so know what you are talking about,I have found if I listen to your song, You're Not alone, sure does help me Mia💖We Love you in Prescott Valley,Az. Can't wait to see you again
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Mia Koehne
12/22/2016 10:12:25 pm
Thanks Lori. Love all my Prescott Valley/ Prescott family!💙 Blessings. We are NOT alone.
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Sue Heim
12/22/2016 07:51:57 pm
Mia, thank you for your honesty.
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Mia Koehne
12/22/2016 10:13:27 pm
Be blessed and have an amazing Christmas.
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Paige Lewis
12/22/2016 09:30:00 pm
Mia, I know that struggle too! Your music inspires me! I love your song "You are not alone". It brings me through the darkness along with prayers. I love your heart! Thanks for your honesty and sharing with us! God Bless!
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Mia Koehne
12/22/2016 10:15:06 pm
Yep, Just gotta write it out. It's how I battle the darkness. Great to hear from you!
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Ginger
12/23/2016 02:26:39 am
Thank you, Mia, for sharing this! I'd never heard anyone talk about speaking the darkness into light, and sharing with others who will lift them up in prayer. Thank you. I tend to put on a happy face, and keep my sadness and hurts safely protected behind a "shield of everything's great!". You've encouraged me to pull the shield away and allow myself to be vulnerable enough to step out of isolation.
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Mia Koehne
12/23/2016 04:12:40 pm
Praying for you as you pull the mask away and step out of isolation. It can be scary and can hurt, but ultimately we open ourselves to be healed, to be real and to authentically walk alongside others going through the same thing.Blessings!
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Kathy
12/23/2016 12:11:53 pm
Thank you Mia
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Mia Koehne
12/23/2016 04:13:52 pm
Yay for our Step Study Sisters!! Keep steppin'
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