The last thing I wanted to hear when I was chasing a 13 month old who was constantly climbing tables, and had been since he started walking at 9 months, while I had my other baby latched onto my breast dangling mid air, while my 4 year old was in the kitchen "trying" to make breakfast (not to mention the fact that I was doing in home daycare for multiple other children at the same time) was "Treasure this time, it goes so fast."
Treasure that time? ...the crazy, the weariness, the loneliness in the midst of chaos, the longing for my husband to come home and rescue me, the dirty diapers, the fatigue, the feeling of being a milking station, the sleepless nights (shall I go on)...treasure that? You have got to be kidding me!!
Yet , here I am...Apparently, I survived..... my bra size a bit smaller, my stomach a bit flabbier, my stretch marks a testimony to my labor, my wrinkles (3 of them) a badge of the times I spent laughing my way to borderline sanity and my babies....grown.
Those voices now ring in my head, the voices telling me to treasure it up, because they grow so fast and my response of not wanting to, I just wanted to survive the day without a major catastrophe. I just wanted them to hurry up. Well my wish came true.
Time hurried up, time did not wait, my babies......,my babies......my babies grew up. My babies now look out for me. My babies have their own opinions, their own ideas, their own relationships. My babies don't poop or pee in their pants anymore, my babies don't need me to cut their nails or wipe their nose. My babies.....what happened to my babies? What happened to the time?
Sometimes I look at myself and wonder, because I know it was just yesterday that they needed me, I know it was just yesterday that they would fall and want me to kiss their owie and make it better. I am sure that it was just the other day when they wouldn't go to bed unless I tucked them in. My babies grew up.
I try my hardest to not be that person...you know, the one who is on the other side passing down those words "Treasure this time, it goes so fast" to the younger moms, but the reality is wether you treasure it up, take it for granted, hold your breath or wish it away, time marches on. Babies grow up and move out and then all you have are the memories of the precious chaos of days gone by.
So, to my Moms that are in the thick of it, It is true, the time with your young children goes fast so, embrace the crazy that is before you.... don't run from it, jump in it and dance in it...out crazy the crazy, turn the world upside down. Seek God hard in the loneliness, learn to trust him more in your weariness. Change the poop with pride, don the stretch mark as your banner, the wrinkles and bags under your eyes as a testimony to the fact that you are not defeated. You have lived to take on another day! And my friends, that truly is a gift!
You see, one day, you will be like me, standing where I am, wondering how it all happened and where the time went and it will take all your will power to not sound like THAT PERSON! Yet, here I stand with my grown-up babes and one day, Lord willing, you will too.
Now someone go get me some grand-babies!!! Let's do this!!
Love you in the Lord, Mia
A collection of writings from a life based on the truth that about midnight anything can happen.
As an imperfect servant of the Lord, I often feel I am fumbling my way through life, looking upward for guidance and outward to love. So, I write about it, to break up the noise in my head.